finally another update

didn't really feel like updating these past couple of months.. been under a lot of depression lately.. and so stressed out. I feel like I don't give a crap about anything anymore..

SCAC 25th anniversary retreat was good and bad at the same time.. .good because I got what I needed.. which is a vacation and I got to here Pastor Tim's message which I have to say are excllent.. but bad because I didn't really get to bond with a lot of people... except for Nick and Chap which I talk to on regular basis but that's about it... not that I'm saying Nick and Chap aren't cool.. because they are.. but I regret not hanging and chilling with new people when I had the chance.

so many things happened these past 2 months and I can think of more bad than good... which is ridiculous... I still have a problem with that "Certain Individual" that I mentioned in my last post.. that certain individual doesn't really talk to me anymore.. and I guess it's a good thing and a bad thing too... more on the bad side... good because I don't have take crap from that person anymore.. bad because I am showing a lot of hatred towards that 'certain individual" I just hated when people need my help they act nice to me.. but when they don't they treat me like crap..

the msg on forgivness on Sunday really got into my head... as soon as the word forgivness was heard.. the first thing that came to my mind was this person... I thought it was extermly hard to forgive this person.... and I don't know if I can.. because everytime I forgive this person he/she continues to treat me like crap.



I can go on and rant about a lot more, but I feel the more I write about my bad experiences the more hatred and angry I get... so I'm done for this post