VERY PISSED!

I had this thought in my head for awhile now... and I always wanted to let it out... I ain't going to mention any names but you probably know who you are and if you're reading this, good cuz I have a msg for you.. and just you ... so I'm going to say this to you right now, F*CK YOU!!!! yeah that's right... I had enough of this sh!t...

you have been doing nothing but using me for God knows how long now.... everytime you need my help.. you become the nicest person to me, but when you don't need my help you push me away, ignore me like I'm f'king thin air, and when I ask you for your help you give me nothing but attitude, by now you probably know who you are already. as far as I ever remember I have not once been mean to you.. but you know what? that's all going to change now... don't you ever f'king ask me for my help again, don't bring your troubles to me because I really don't give a sh!t if you succeed or fail.


see I usually don't say stuff like this, but I had enough.. I can't stand you anymore, I would say this to your f'king face but then you'll probably cry and make ME look like the bad guy.. which I'm not.


I feel so much better letting all that out now........

Easy Money

I earned $15 today.. easy money.. haha...

anyways, this is what happened... I didn't have class today... only a project I had to hand in.. so I handed in my project and was going to head home.. but I wanted to visit my friend in his biology class..

they were dissecting pigs.. and they needed to take the heart out... my friend and I were just chatting while he was dissecting.. and then some girl tapped me on the shoulder and said "I'll give you $5 if you help me dissect this and take the heart out" she looked really grossed out so I decided to help her.. so I cut up the pig and took the heart out, I told her I didn't want the money but she insisted and forced into my pocket.. and then suprisingly 2 other girls standing beside her offered me the same deal.. so I took it.. haha... $15 right there....

it smelled bad but it was worth it.. hahaha

Deep Sleep

I fell into an extremley creepy deep sleep today.... after lunch I went to the santuary planning to take a 20 minute nap.. It was like 1:30pm and was planning to wake up at like 1:50pm or 2:00pm, I lied down and I pretty much passed out... yeah lack of sleep probably does this to you.. but I can never sleep at night.. at least not anymore... anyways.. I fell into a very deep sleep, I heard my phone ringing like 3 or 4 times but I couldn't open my eyes and I thought it was a dream or something.. and then I heard a bunch of people calling my name and shaking me, but still I couldn't wake up and I thought I was dreaming.. after like, I don't even know how long I eventually woke up and I see a bunch of of 7-up kids standing beside me.. and one of them told me that my phone has been ringing forever, and then another one ask me if I was okay... I guess they knew something was wrong when I didn't respond to any sound of touch or anything.... I got up.. and I felt like I was going to faint.. and thankfully I didn't, When I woke up it was like 4:00pm alraedy .... thank God for those 7-upers, otherwise I'll probably sleeping there right now.. haha..

My opinion on the supernatural (Interview assignment)

I had an interview assignment today in that paranormal and supernatrual studies class.. some interesting questions too...the person that interviewed me didn't want me to put his name down on my xanga so I'll just same "interviewer"

Interviewer: "If ghosts are real then how come only a handful of people have ever reported seeing them"?

Clem: "I've heard that question so many times... and this is the answer..we (humans) are not meant to see ghosts.. or spirits.. no it's not like the movies.. humans are only capable of feeling ghost's presence but we are not capable of seeing them with our naked eye".

Interviewer: "so what about those handful of people that has reported seeing them"?

Clem: "those people are either lying.. or going through spiritual demonic attacks... demons, I guess you can say is one of the supernatrual things a human can see with the naked eye and demons can come to you in all sorts of shapes, they can take shape of someone who is already dead.. hence when someone sees them in a form of someone who is already dead they'll think it's a ghost, and who can blame them? I mean if a person you know very well is dead and you see them walking around in your bedroom you'll probably assume it's a ghost.. either that or you've been working too hard.. haha"

Interviewer: "Have you ever felt a ghost's presence"

Clem: "I don't know, but I believe it's possible. I've been to places where people believe is haunted, and when I go in there sometimes I feel like I'm not alone. just like the time I went to the abandoned farm house in Guleph, I can swear there was something in there with me just that I couldn't see it.. I don't know if it was the presence of a ghost or something, but it was definetly something that I have never felt in my life"

Interviewer: "if you ever did see a ghost or a demon, what is the first thing you'll do"?

Clem: Run.. hell, I don't care how much the assignment is worth or how much money they give me.. I ain't going to stick around and greet the ghost for you, haha"

Interviewer: "what is the most creepiest place you ever been in Toronto?

Clem: the most creepiest place I've ever been, I have to say probably Old Finch, and some parts of U of T downtown is quite creepy too.

Interviewer: "Why Old Finch"?

Clem: because Old Finch has been around for over 100 years... its old.. and the place gets very dark at night. There's a bridge at Old Finch.. a very small bridge, they say most of the hauntings took place under that bridge.. one story, which is a ture story and I know this because it was on the news. some girl was mudered on her birthday and her body was dumped over that bridge.. when you go under that bridge you can kindda feel the sadness feeling.. I don't knwo how to describe it, you'll have to go there yourself to feel it.

Interviewer: "thanks but I don't think I'll ever go there, haha"..final question, why are the ghost here? what do they want?

Clem: "I have no idea, but I can tell you what they're NOT here for, they're not here to hurt you, I believe that ghosts are just lost spirits, why are they not in heaven? or in hell? beats me... I guess you can try asking them with EVP or Ouija board.. but I don't suggest it.. I think we should just let them rest in peace"

Interviewer: "do you have anything to add"

Clem: "Yeah.. for those people who want to try communicating with the dead, I suggest you don't, if you can hear them, it means they can hear you, and most of the time.. the person you think you might be talking to is not really who it seems.. it could be a demon trying to lure you into evil and possess you"

Interviewer: (gives me a strange look) Ok thank you for your time..


yeah weird assignment.. but I think I did pretty good on it..

Another interesting story

Hide-N-Seek, or Hango-Seek as we called it, was definitely our favorite outdoor summer game, and we had many great places to play it, but the best place was "The Junk Yard". It wasn't really a junk yard, it was a fenced in place on River Street with a couple of dilapidated old wooden buildings full of holes that housed giant bales of cloth that were soon to be turned into felt. It was a busy place and the bales were changed regularly creating an always changing maze of tunnels and holes to hide in. After the workers left it was our turn.

One day George, Gary, Jimmy, Ricky and I were playing there. George was a small kid with bright red hair and there was no mistaking him for anybody else. In hide-and-seek, if you spied someone and identified them wrongly it was called a false spy and you were "IT" again. We all spied George at least once when we were it and he'd pop up somewhere else yelling "false spy, you're it again". So after four or five false spies on George we decided something funny was going on. It was pretty dark in there except for a few beams of light coming through the holes in the walls. We now started to get a bit scared and decided to get out quick. We all scrambled for the exit hole trying to be the first one out.

Unfortunately, the hole was very small and we had to exit one at a time in single file. Gary was behind me and I heard him say "Come on George, hurry up". So I turned around and noticed that George was crawling along behind us but quite a bit back. However, when I got to the hole and looked out I saw George standing outside. Well let me tell you, I almost tore the skin right off my back getting out that hole. Gary popped out next and just about dropped dead when he saw George there. We took off like scared cats. Later at Gary's house we told his mother about this and she told us a young kid with red hair suffocated there years before.

my opinion

"do you believe that ghosts really exist"? I can't even begin to count how many times I've heard someone ask me that question... and my answer has always been "I don't know"... but now I've come to conclusion believing that they do exist... I just don't believe that we need to be afraid of them..

during the past year and a half , most of you probably know that I'm taking a course called "Paranormal and Supernatrual studies"... I've actually been interested in stuff like this ever since I was a kid. Do I ever get scared? yes of course, but at the same time I get a kick out of being scared too.. haha

seriously speaking though... I believe that I've probably been to most of the scariest places in Toronto, maybe even outside of Toronto too.. I've seen a lot of things, some creepy things too. .. though I've must say I have never seen a ghost before, I have had experiences where I felt like I wasn't alone... usually when I"m at places where there is a unexplained prescence or some might say "haunted".

So does studying this stuff make me a bad christian? that's another question I've been asked a few times... my answer? "no.. I don't think so" .. I mean where does it say in the bible that we cannot study about ghosts.. and supernatrual stuff... ok yeah it does say in the bible that we should stay away form evil things..

but what is it that makes people think that ghost = "evil" ? is it because how they're portrayed in movies and in books? I believe ghost are just lost spirits...now if I say demons then that's a different story... everyone should believe that demons exist..




anyways just felt like sharing my opinion on a few things... it helps me sleep sometimes

X-Files

I remember when this show came out in 1993 I was in like Grade 2 I think.. I watched the first episode and then my mom didn't let me anymore cuz it was too scary.. and my mom didn't like that supernatural ghost stuff... this TV series ran for like 9 years which is amazing... So I bought the TV series on DVD and started watching from season one... and now I can understand why my parents didn't want me to watch the rest... some stuff is actually still pretty scary.. like the episodes about ghosts and all.. I think X-files is like one of the best TV series ever.. better than CSI, 24, and YES I think it's better than Smallville... haha.. I like TV shows that makes you think and creep you out at the same time.. and X-files does that.... CSI makes you think but doesn't really creep you out.


I watched like 4 episodes in one day and then I got nightmares.. haha.. yeah some of them are THAT creepy... it doesn't have those loud noises or stuff pops out of nowhere like those crappy horror movies... but the show just give you that creepy feeling.. the dark feeling...

anyone that likes Sci-fi horror stuff.. should get this DVDs.. It's probably going to take me forever to watch all 9 seasons.. one episode is about 45 mintue each and there is a total of 202 episodes.. haha